His Mighty and Gentle Embrace

1 Peter 5:7 ESV "Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you."

There will be a point in our lives when we will encounter our biggest fear head on. We will face a different kind of uncertainty that will evidently test our faith. Sometimes we thought our faith is enough to put us through the trials in life. Sometimes we feel so much blessed that we became too familiar with God, that His existence is just common, ordinary part of our lives.

Just recently, I was admitted to a hospital and undergone some procedures in response to an unexpected medical condition. The first test tends to show some serious result which needed to have a more comprehensive test and a minor surgery. Imagine how scared I was at that time. I was never been admitted to a hospital during my 31 years of existence. Hospital? I dreaded the smell of it plus I have a hemophobia. A lot of things came to my mind and I was suddenly engulfed with anxiety. I consider myself as a healthy individual who rarely have illnesses except for my anemia which is not that serious. So I'm somewhat confused why do I have to come across this.

As always, whenever I'm confronted with things that I can't comprehend I ask God for an explanation. Looking for answers, I cry out to Him. What? Why? How? These are the questions but I was not able to get a definite answer. Instead I was reminded of His extraordinary existence in my life. A special connection. . .

The day of my admission, the time of my surgery came and I wonder why I did not felt so afraid. It seems that I was enveloped with a new set of courage. I was discharged from the hospital a day after and I was amazed that I did not felt any major pain at all, unlike what it is in my previous imagination.

I came to realized that it was God after all. Despite my doubts, He embraces me with gentleness and protection. He secures me with His power and love.

Now, I'm in the process of healing and I'm about to know the final diagnosis six days from now. There are so many lies, attacks from the devil trying to infiltrate and destroy the foundation of my faith. But I will never be shaken, because in the midst of uncertainties one thing is clear. . . God cares for me and I'm holding on to that. His gentle embrace is so warm and comforting that in my heart I know He will never let me go.

A new year begins, a new hope, a new love, a new life is waiting for me to conquer. Another year with my loving Father, my mighty God and savior, my Lord Jesus Christ. How great is that huh? Thus I have nothing to worry. My God is mighty to save.

OF STORIES AND DREAMS. . . I AM WHO AM AND WHAT I WANT TO BE

It's quite interesting how our fascination takes us to places within our imagination. Our mind somehow translate it into sparkling ideas beyond our comprehensive way of thinking and finally make it into a concrete train of thoughts called STORY.

A story that transforms into a DREAM and later a reality.

My mind is somewhat full of narratives and I tried to express it in many ways that I can.

I started my pursuit when I was 7 years old, I became so engrossed with the picturesque effect of the images around me. I wanted to make a story out from it so I created my own version of those visuals, seriously did some drawings with the help of my precious pencil. I came to take the ARTS by heart and I thought it had become my way of conveying stories of friendship, family, love and even my wildest dreams in life.

I discovered another key to the world of stories when I was in my 5th grade. My teacher told me to pursue writing. She believed that when I grow up I'll become a good novelist. I have not really listened to her back then. But somehow I took her advice when I reached high school.

It was during high school when I started writing poems and short stories. The mystery and excitement with those phrases and lines that I cannot proclaim drive me to write my own feelings. I even become a huge fan of Mr. Shakespeare, although his works are far more difficult for a high schooler like me then to understand. But it was just so great really. I had become passionate about LITERATURE for such a long time and of course until now.

Somehow I felt like there's still a missing element in my stories. I need to add some flavor. But how? I create mine the way I see it, the way I read it. . . So what's missing?

Suddenly a wave of beautiful sound flows in the air. It's been there all along. How wonderful it is that I just closed my eyes to listen. I learned that music indeed adds flavor to every scene. It can reveal captivating pieces of emotion. Slowly my whole being coincides with music day by day.

Time pass by, I still continue making stories in many ways that I can. I finished highschool, I've gone to college, I started working but I did not abandon those expressions.

Have you wonder what I had become, considering my statements above? Oh, I actually became an Engineer. Yes it is, I pursued a different path. But that's another story. SCIENCE might had been a strong influence. What do you think?

I have said a lot. . . about stories and stuff. But what I want to leave behind is this. . . LIFE is composed of many different stories, but it all comes down to your choice on what things or ways to embrace so you can identify the person that you are. Know your dreams and do not be afraid to act on it.

I have chosen mine. I have chosen much. But that's who I am and what I want to be. What about you?